One True Thing

So, I realize that there are very few things in this world that I know to be true. But there is one- a rare constant truth and comforts me and makes me look forward to things ahead.
I know that there will never come a day when I will open my bible and be full - my knowledge will never be complete- things will always challenge me- will always amaze me- will always inspire me.
Some people get in ruts where they 'read' the bible, but it doesn't him them and it doesn't translate. For me, I just stop. If I'm being prideful, or not connecting with God, I stay away from the bible because, i know as soon as I open it I will be broken. Luckily for me, it rarely takes long for me to break - or for God to trow it in my face. One of my favorite feelings is hearing a scripture and getting the God Chills.
The chills that come from inside and make me feel like God just reached out and hugged me. I realize that could sound a little crazy- but, it's the best feeling. To know that He wanted me to hear that.
He is so much more powerful that any of us can ever understand - He just refuses to fit in the box that I want to put Him in- and I love Him for that.
It's amazing how much He's given me through His word. It just seems, and is, an endless amount of rebuke, love, comfort, hope, doctrine and faith.
i just know that I never want to know what s it's like to live with out him. I know that I can't do without him by my side. Sometimes I still try- but luckily the tries are now farther and father apart.
I feel like I could write about this for days. Because it's my livelihood. It's what keeps me breathing. God is what keeps me going. He made me and loves me and will never leave me. Ever that is something that it took me a good 20 years to realize. His promises are never broken. He game me the ultimate gfirst- the ulrimate sacridice.. He calls me to live a life that he seserves and that in the deepest aprts of my heart I want to live for him.

We talked about David today at church. He was in love with God. I know that I am uncappable of loving God the perfect way he deserves because he deserves perfection- he deserves a constantly selfless and sinless love. David was a man after God's own heart- can I be that woman? I want to love God the way he did. I want to have the faith that he did. I want to have that humility, confidence in God and strength.