Ok - So, I've started to let myself worry about who reads what I write on here... and I suppose, chances are, no one does really. There are some people that I hope do. I love that some people that I don't know might read it - and wonder how they react to it. But, then there are the people that I know that might read it.
It's Sunday morning. I've been sick and in bed since Thurs night. Gives you a lot of time to think.
Sometimes I hate it when I have too much time to think.
I overwhelm myself!
Lately, my thought has been "What is the world am I doing with my life?"
No biggie, right.
I feel like this might be the time in my life when I start to think- I have dreams for my life...
To be a wife.
To be a mom.
Are those dreams enough? I know! It's so cliche - the inner turmoil of a post adolescent girl trying to figure out what she wants to do with her life.
I'm starting to realize how much of a kid I am not!
You would think at 21 I would have realized that a little while ago- but, no, now that I will on my own, legally own my own car, pay car insurance, will soon be legally an independent, therefor will be paying health insurance.
I have grown up bills, that require a grown up paycheck.
Sometimes, I think the grownups around me don't see that.
Ugh- see, writing, thinking, it's stressing me out.
Adulthood certainly can be overrated at times...I still feel like I'm adjusting to the realities of it at times (and I am way beyond "post adolescence" as you well know) ;) ...Maybe to your surprise, maybe not, I can relate to what you are experiencing...I still wrestle with those questions and responsibilities...i'm here for ya!
ReplyDeleteI miss your postings Melissa. I'd love to know what you've been up to and how you're doing!
ReplyDeletemeliss- being a wife and mom is the most honorable occupation, ever. i feel the same, it is most definitely worthwhile, most definitely "dreams enough." love you.
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